okays...so my flower dresses make me look fat. notsoflowerpower.. whatever weight i lost over the two weeks, i've just put it back on by emotional eating. yups, a packet of double choc-chip cookies, wafers, & florentines ought to do the trick. add sugary mango juice+cocoa to the mix and obesity, here we come! blahhhhh... i'm still a lil bit slimmer than i was a couple wks ago but my tubby is back to flabby & outy..gonna take more than a few months before i'm flatty & abby again. though, the ab definition is there now...i just got to get rid of those awful rolls...eww.. working two jobs was less exhausting when i was a student. of course, i forgot to factor in the fact that student life is not 5 days a wk & an 8 hr day...despite the 24 hours i would spend in the labs. oh, i wouldn't be so down if i was actually doing well...but i kinda suck at my job. i'm not used to poor performance. i rather like to excel at pretty much everything i do... so it's a no brainer i'm going to be shitting myself that i'm so darn slow and inefficient. not to mention, the resultant maps aren't that great for the time i'm spending to create them... i still haven't bought myself a new pair of runner or jeans...go figure. you'd think i would finally have the time to go shopping...el oh el. gawsh, i think i feel a puke fest calling out my name.. i could wollow in my many inadequacies or i can try to snap out of it and actually accomplish some taks: TO DO LIST:
must get to work early tomorrow...i'd rather work unpaid than do a shithouse job...i didn't even hit the gym today...geez.. Make a comment Permalink What was i wearing the first time we first met? Blue jeans, a red striped shirt, and denim jacket How about my shoes? You were barefoot How/Why do you remember this? That's easy....because... i love you. .......................................................... eeeeeep! lol!!! okok, getting fatter is not easy (on anyone)...but it definitely adds salt to the wounds if my heart skips a beat after hearing these corny lines...ugh...no tv for me! Thank God i didn't have to work today (: i scored me some FLOWER POWER!!! YAY!!! gawsh, at least i'm not depressed :) Make a comment Permalink
@ my face @ my nose lols @ me trying to find a rich guy to pay for my rhinoplasty :P *rolls eyes* EB was right. We need to be confident in the way God sees us... ... ..but i'd still like to see me with a sharper+higher nose, thinner face, longer neck, longer &thinner arms+legs, bigger eyes, flatter belly... ...i am absolutely kicking myself that i let it all go... i mean, wth? maybe it's my punishment... & the worst thing about it is that i regret NOT showcasing my flat waistline.. like seriously...wtf happened to my face&bod? Make a comment Permalink
urghhhhh..YOU JERKFACE YOU!!!!!! some ppl make me sooooo mad!!! i should probably control my temper but i've done away with gentle etiquette as a trade-off to getting fat. now i'm just angry... why do i always find myself in lovehate rships? dotdotdot.. i seriously feel pregnant.. sigh, what went so wrong...oh that's right. i turned 21 and everything rolled downhill... dayum! not looking forward to going back to Ipoh that's for sure. I dodged the fat taunts for a good 5 yrs before facing them again early this yr. now? now they'll be 10x worse unless i keep wearing a jacket + tent dresses...ughhhh...but then i'll be facing short taunts anyway so what do i care anymore? there is way too much drama going on back home anyway...i doubt my fat taunts will be the centre of it.. anyway...start work tmr..waiting for boss to get back to me regarding time......zzz..isn't it a bit late? Comments (2) Permalink
Oh but human being We all need to quit Being inhumane~ ............ It's alllllll(most) over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! eeeeps.. Thank God (: I really wanted to finish well...and it looks like i might. Perhaps not extraordinarily well but considering my lack of preparation and utter laziness/poor time management..just well enough. Who cares what my final honours calculation will be...i will graduate with honours regardless!!! yay!!! Got my Problem Solving in the Environments Paper back today. Even though it's a science sub, i still want to score well. Don't know how i scraped an 88 (God's blessings) but it motivates me to aim high for the exam.. Ironically, i still require 78 minimum for an H1...sooo....meh, 60% exams aren't my niche. Especially when i haven't attended class because of a rather unfortunate clash. ahhh who am i kidding, i probably would have skipped class to work on my eng projects anyway heeeehheeee. I do regret not spending more time with my uni mates or joining some more social clubs...not like working + $ has done much for me anyway.. hmmm..kk...time to cut the crap+fat. no more snacking on full packets of kitkat/timeout/spongefingers! i can't believe i was eating two packets a day..no wonder i've put on so much weight. Gosh i LOVE Paul M's energy! i have to quit being lazy and workworkwork! woooohoooo~ pump it pump it! you can be a sexay chick (if you lost say about 7 kgs) trallalalala~ BTW, i absolutely ADORE the Shinee boys. ohh crapp...i'm one of those annoying noonas hahahaha! Oh em geeee, how cute are they??!!...i just want to cuddle Minho to sleep...ahhaha...i'm sounding more and more like a pedophile... and 2PM are such pervs...LOL...feeling each other up...dayum boys, you sexay dicks! ohh kayy...i know that sounded wrong but like my brain can come up with anything better at this time ;) Make a comment Permalink
I only have a single week left of uni..that's it....a measly 6 more days til my FINAL exam (which i'll start studying for after i complete my subdivision :P lol, it's a science exam anyway) You'd think i'd be cramming my butt off...and yet, here i am (wasting my talentless fingers) tinkering on the piano.. It would really be so much more efficient once i get my hands on some sheet music. Unfortunately, i'm not that gifted to play by ear... so why on earth am i wasting so much time???????!!!!!!!!!! urgghhhh!!! Anyway, throwing all frustrations aside (i hope i don't internalise them too much) My all-time fav. mood elevating song makes me smile even without the hilariously cute commentaries: oh yeah, and this is my current bg study music...lol...loves it! p.s. why are ppl commenting tt this random pianoprodigy looks like hankyung? fools... i can't seem to find a cover of KAJ Byul from 200pounds that i'm happy with...maybe i'll start recording myself? heeeeheeeee....study first girl!!!! pahbo!!! Make a comment Permalink note to self: lookfor&buy sheet music in Msia... I am desperately trying to get my hands on suju sheet music. dessssperately! There is a 98% chance that i will not be in Melb come May, 2010...& i'm not talking short-term either. I have narrowed down my options to:
Who knows? It might even be my calling. I mean, i told God that if i don't get any job offers...then...i would fly myself to Korea & teach english. lol. soo... this is it. 2 more assessments. headdownthumbsup! From Incheon-Seoul-Bandung, wait for meeeeee~ Make a comment Permalink Perpetual sorrow feels like a state of internalised suicide. One must not give up but produce mental toughosity!! oh yeah!!! ha! yeah right... In You, will i draw strength for i cannot continue based on my efforts alone. If only i could release the well of tears kept hidden deep within. It would compliment the drought of our external environment, no? sigh I do feel, however, that a slight crack might drown us all. new series name: tsunami of tears..lol... not funny... Sadness does not enjoy company. No.. sadness is my company. Make a comment Permalink ..if only. if only i had put that littttllleee bit more effort into the poster. if only i had put a littttlllee more thought into my design response. if only i hadn't listed to H and changed my original design so there was less road reserve and more open space. oh well...i suppose those with industry experience don't always know best. if there is one thing i have learnt, you MUST listen carefully to your authorities. ultimately, they are the one with the power to grade you well (regardless of subjective standards). ...hmmm... i spent a lot of time editing that poster. i'm pretty sure i'll be spending a lot moreee time editing this report. considering there is hardly any time left, i'm a little concerned...where do i draw the line from retouching people's grammar to completely changing their original work? -_-;; Dear God, i know i am no longer able to graduate with first class honours but i do hope to at least finish these final subjects with a minimum of 80. thank you! Make a comment Permalink .....ottoke? God, only with your help can i/we do well in this project...i can't seem to do any work on it...please help! Make a comment Permalink
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